Stardust

Looked forward to watching the movie all year last year
Finally watched it today
Good movie, very very entertaining… Neil Gaiman is a marvelous writer…
He’s got quite a interesting sense of obsurd humor
(suites me perfectly)
很有天外飛來一筆的感覺

yet, it also left me a bit… hollow

And made me realize, what’s missing
Yeah, life is been going great for awhile now
Very great
In fact, so great that it doesn’t feel… so great

I’ve always believed that everything is relative
Nothing is… absolute
You only know happiness if you understand sadness
And vice versa

What’s missing?
I’m happy, but I am not really happy
I’m trying to move forward, but it feels so empty

Back when I was with Ivo, I was depressed, YES…
But when I was happy, I was truly happy
When I moved forward, there seemed to be an honest purpose.

Sure, I really do think studying Environmental Law is purposeful.
I do think continuing my obsession towards English literature
(specifically Middle English and Medieval Culture) is purposeful.
I even think my new found interest in finding prove for my own theories
is purposeful.
But there’s still something MISSING!

Love is missing…
My heart is with me, and that just didn’t feel right…
Because, it should belong to someone else… but who?
But where? But when?
Sometimes I feel that it is soon, that I am so close to finding him…
Then I wonder at other times if I would meet him at all!
Good thing is, it’s always more “close to find him” than “none at all”…

Yvaine was a star… and she glowed because of love

Isn’t that the way for any of us?

I somehow seem to miss that glow…

Someone to love…

Someone to beloved from…