Back to Basics

Done a lot of thinking under the outer layers of my brains without my participation. Ended up doing always the things I tell myself not to do, and decided, that the very reason I keep doing them is because I keep trying to avoid them. I keep making the same mistakes because all I think about are the mistakes. Back to the basics…I had always believed that if you already know something will happen, you don’t worry about it, you don’t think about it, it will come as it will come, life will come as it will come. That’s the way I lived the first 18 years of my life. Things really went a bit tipsy turvy after that, I stopped believing in too many things, in myself, in my present and future. I dwelled on the seeming beautiful past, looking at the past errors, hoping to correct them, and forgot that the more important is the present, the beautiful present, creating beautiful future.Whatever in life, may it be LSAT, may it be law school application, may it be public projects, private projects, whatever which I choose to do, why should I worry about it? It is bound to happen, as it should, if not, then as not. I will do what I will do, accomplish what is meant for me to accomplish. Why all the fear and suspicion now? There’s none the need of that. I will do well because, well, I believe in myself and I believe things will always turn out nicely for me and those around me, so… I guess, in this case, no need to worry about it, just have fun, enjoy the exam, the application, whatever comes.Come what may. Meanwhile, I just wanna enjoy every moment of it.